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My heart beats to the music of fear.fear that one day it might stop.fear that loves cruel touch will feel it once again.loves warm comfort or it’s cruel icy breeze. Is it worth the pain of all who I let in. is it easier to close all the gates and simply lead all those who try and enter my heart. straight to my brain. where only knowledge can judge the people who enter.are this truly the only gifts god has given us.the only choices we have in front of us.loves warmness repaid with an  icy void.the brains knowledge of truth repaid with the knowledge of depression and loneliness. are this truly gifts or just cruel jokes.I realize now that life is cursed my fear of my heart stopping has vanished.i had come to terms with fate and started my journey down the empty void.but then I felt something a warm pulse pushing and pulling my every being i felt happy for a moment until I realized I’ve felt this before I remember this feeling my brain could never let me forget and so I followed that feeling. straight to its source where I saw  something not a man nor a girl nor beast nor an object only beauty engulfed in fire.I asked who are you.It said I am cruelty I am anguish I am all that you fear or have ever known I am eternal I am god.and with that the void opened the music finally stopped...........hope you guys liked that trying something New I’ll be posting this stuff once a week. so hope you liked it